‘Radiate with pure joy!’
For some strange reason, I can’t sleep. All that’s in my mind is the first time you kissed me. How you looked deep into my eyes despite the fact it was pitch black, how you touched my neck tenderly thankful that I didn’t have hair falling onto my shoulders and getting into your way, not that you would have minded pushing it back or tacking it behind my ear, your blank face as you searched for the perfect words to help me recover from the shock that you’ve always had an interest in me for the longest time and you just didn’t know how, where or when to tell me and that you’d be delighted, more than honoured and the happiest you’d ever been, should I give you a chance to prove yourself to me.
How you’d bared your soul naked to me, how vulnerable that must have been and surely must have felt… the yearning you had, how softly and tenderly you held my hand… and finally how you asked “Babe, can I kiss you?” After I’d agreed to giving us a chance. How you drew closer to me, one hand holding both of my hands and on my lap, the other on my neck. The way you drew in slowly, closed your eyes and finally locked our lips. It was a wonderful out of this world feeling. My mouth was suddenly so full, bubbling like I’d taken a thousand, differently favoured, bubble gums, topped up with a mouthful of sparkling water, though a strange comparison, I felt like fireworks were exploding in my mouth leaving their ever so spectacular views (read tastes) in there coz the feel good feeling of seeing fireworks was never enough I wanted to taste it(I’ve always thought the displays looked like multicolored candy).
How I struggle to word that moment ;surely how do you describe such a magical moment and not strip it its beauty? Your lips locked mine softly yet so firmly… I felt as if you were claiming me and certainly, you were. The hand that was previously on my laps had somehow found it’s way to my waist, the grip, firm as well, was so pampering, it made me aware of my or rather our surroundings. The trees breathed slowly and rhythmically releasing a wonderful breeze, “how is this possible yet I can hardly contain my breathe?” I thought my chest was busting open, My world was spinning so fast but the crickets went on and on with their songs while the mosquitoes buzzed and danced, Natures Orchestra.
The feeling of your tongue, totally indescribable! You drew me in a little bit closer, tightened your grip and claimed my lips with some next level passion, your mouth felt so warm, your lips so tender, it was all so comforting that I knew I wanted to grow old experiencing that for the rest of my life… When we broke off from the kiss, I could swear I saw a million and one shooting stars in the night, that was a few moments ago bottomlessly black and blank. How couldn’t all my wishes not come true now, when I had just experienced a simple yet so rare kiss, that was super astonishing and mind blowing. There’s no way I’d I’ve pictured, imagined, dreamed nor wished of it yet it had come to pass and I’d now be experiencing such kisses, with definitely more sauce and spice (wink😜 wink😜) for eternity.
The look you gave me after the kiss was different, somehow and in a good way you had become someone different, it was no longer tension nor worry, i could sense the urge of you wanting to protect me from everything and everyone else. You wanted to explore life with me now more than ever. I could see and smell a pot of bubbling love boiling inside you that you just couldn’t wait to serve and share with me. And then;,,, there was the smirk that was plastered on your face, a look that said something along, “settle down missy 😛, buckle up! coz your about to go on a roller coaster that never stops… if you think you’re going anywhere? I’m never letting go, I’ma hold you down and give you the time of your life.”
So far? The experience has been worthwhile. But what steadied my heart was you saying, “Thanks babe, that was wonderful!” It felt amazing to know that I’d given joy to you too, it was somewhat a confirmation that you had a seat in the roller coaster too and no matter what you’d always hold my hand… that as you made me happy I’d be reciprocating the happiness, probably more. I can never get the image of that perfect night out of my mind nor can I ever shake the feeling off any cell of my being. Not that I’d want to anyway.